I need to make a decision. Do I keep wearing keep wearing regular hearing aids or have the surgery for implants?
Well, do you WANT to keep wearing regular hearing aids?
Or pay an expensive amount of cash to be able to hear well for the rest of your life without the worry of hearing aids?
As a hearing aid owner, (one for each ear) I would jump at the chance to have surgery for implants. I find it very difficult to wear mine and so tend not to do so. I guess it depends on how you are with your aids. With implants, it's done and thats it - I wish you luck with whatever you decide
Make a list of the pros and cons of each. Post it next to your bed, ask for guidance and then keep track of dreams, random thoughts, "signs", etc...
You already know the right path. It's just a matter of coaxing it to the conscious mind.
Cheers, and good luck.