Insight for 2016?
Hello. I've posted in this forum before, and have gotten some good advice, so I'm hoping someone can give me some guidance.
I've recently taken a huge step, and applied to graduate school. At the start of 2015, there was no way I would have done this as it was too far out of my comfort zone. Well, throughout 2015 various events and circumstances caused my comfort zone to get shaken up a bit, and I saw this as a sign to take the plunge. If accepted to one of these schools, I would have to move to a different state (New York, California, or Florida) which makes me both nervous and excited.
As of right now I have not heard from any schools, and it's driving me crazy. I really want to get into a school, but I've managed to convince myself that I won't be accepted anywhere. My low self-esteem has really been affecting me lately. I didn't know if anyone could offer any insight into this.
My birthday is 01/08/1992
Cappygurl89, 2016 for you is a year to complete unfinished business, reach conclusions and tie up loose ends. These actions will help you step into the next several years of your life without the pressure of unresolved matters of the past pulling you back. As one door closes, another opens but, if you refuse to accept that certain doors really have closed, you will be unable to recognize the new possibilities. It is time to face the absolute reality of your past - and how it is impacting your present, and then decide how you want to create your future. Your reality is not just a matter of where you stand today or where you want to be tomorrow. It is made up of everything that has ever happened to you, everyone you have ever met, anything you have ever done, and any feeling you have ever felt - or denied.
Where you stand today is the result of where you have been. But before you can progress, you must release yourself emotionally, mentally, or physically, from those aspects which no longer serve a purpose and are chaining you to a point in time that no longer exists. It is time to integrate your past with the present, so that the potential of your future can be seen and felt. This is achieved by accepting the past exactly as it was and by feeling everything about it that you have been unable to feel. A significant transformation is likely this year - alterations and improvements to all areas of your life, even though you may not immediately see the positive merits of certain situations. When the old buried emotion that is weighing you down is released, life will suddenly become a lighter experience and be more easily understood and enjoyed. If you feel a sense of numbness or stagnation, it is because you are so close to accepting your full reality but are holding the emotions involved in, instead of expressing them out. This magnetic pressure prevents forward movement and draws you to a repeat of the very situations you would prefer to avoid. We have all been conditioned to believe that emotional expression denotes weakness and is “negative”. In fact, emotional expression is our strength, our own self-healing mechanism, our only means of freedom, and the ultimate tool of creativity.
People who refuse to accept the past spend their lives rehashing the same old situations, making the same old mistakes, unable to accept new realities, and dissatisfied with everything. They justify their unsatisfactory existence by blaming others, blaming time, blaming life itself and blaming themselves. Some people claim to be apart from or above the journey humanity is taking, all the time resenting that they are too afraid to be a part of it. And, because none of us has truly evolved into Free Will yet, we are all effected by these misunderstandings. This year, it is not enough for you to simply have an intellectual understanding of Free Will. You will learn that your feelings are your only means of activating personal freedom. This year of endings and conclusions offers you the chance to free yourself of the erroneous beliefs that have always caused unhappiness, dissatisfaction, and stagnation in the past. 2016 will teach you how to break free from the past by releasing your grip on it. Without this understanding, you will forever be a victim of something that once happened to you. It is time to heal.
Nothing new will happen for you in 2016 until the necessary endings take place. The more you strive to begin something new without first releasing the old, the more resistance life will give you. If you do not make an effort to accept your emotional realities, you may find that your history will repeat itself over the next several years. This is a year to go back over your life’s continuous journey and consider everything that happened to you. There will be things you don’t want to remember; memories you may be blocking from your consciousness. These are the very events and situations that need to be addressed. These are the heavy loads that are weighing on you like an anchor, preventing you from moving forward into the kind of life you desire. The more genuine intent you have to allow repressed memories to resurface, the easier it will become to accept the year's healing process.
It is the sheer weight of past and present emotion that causes depression, even though we try to fool ourselves into believing that depression can be avoided by avoiding these emotions. This pretense creates deeper denial and, eventually, deeper depression. If you find yourself dwelling on certain emotions such as anger, fear, or grief to the extent that you cannot live constructively, there is a good chance you are using these emotions as an excuse for continuing to deny another emotion which is even more deeply buried. Denial is no longer an option on this Earth. It is denial that has caused many of the dire problems that humanity faces today. This applies as much to your personal life as it does to life in general. Being afraid to feel your feelings is a natural response. The only way to deal with this fear is to understand that fear, like all other feelings, must be allowed to follow its own evolutionary process. It must be allowed to move. When you cling to fear, you are refusing to accept its ability to help you. And, by stopping its movement you, in turn, become paralyzed by it. Feel your fear, accept its presence. Allow it to move through you and out of you. This process develops courage, and the ability to recognize those things which really do need to be feared, and those which need not be feared at all. Your feelings are your senses and instincts, all of which are vital to your survival.
Be honest with yourself. Mere positive thinking can do more harm than good if you are not simultaneously feeling that way. Your thoughts and feelings are two very different energies and must be experienced separately so that you can tell them apart. And when your masculine thoughts and feminine feelings make peace and join forces, your personal power to survive and prosper increases significantly, and your entire being evolves. The year will take you in what seems like the wrong direction - backwards - but this is the direction you must take in order to find the unfinished issues which are preventing you from going forward. It is natural for this period to be an emotional one. Not only will you be dealing with emotions from the past, but also with new emotional situations in the present which, in effect, help trigger the old feelings which need to be released. This year’s circumstances may be reenactments of the past, in different forms, representing the consequences of certain actions, inaction, beliefs, and attitudes. You cannot live fully in the present if part of you is stuck in the past. Therefore, you will want to go back and retrieve those parts of yourself that are stuck there.
Generosity and compassion will play important roles now. Through a greater depth of feeling in yourself, you will become more sympathetic to other people’s realities and more aware of how you, and they, are compounding certain problems by denying the feelings involved. You will also become aware of the difference between compassion and guilt. If you are reluctantly involved in something, guilt may have convinced you that it’s the right thing to do. Maybe it is. Maybe it isn’t. But the only way to be sure is by letting your true feelings guide you. It is in 2016 that you will realize the extent to which guilt has kept you from achieving happiness and how much you have denied guilt by reversing it into blame. This year, unhappy memories will arise so they can be healed, creating more inner space for happiness to resurface. Inaccurate beliefs will be replaced by new truths and potentials. As you accept what has happened to you, you develop a clearer picture of what you want to happen. The old you becomes the present you, and your Will - your desire - determines the future you.
2016 is your year of completion, of unravelling, of letting go of the old to make space for change. This change can be somewhat dramatic and tumultuous; possessions, relationships, job, geographical location, spirituality, health. It’s all under review this year. This is the year that’s inviting (oh, let’s be honest, it’s forcing you) you to move on to an even more expansive cycle in your life if you choose to let go and allow what’s no longer serving you to fall away. This is also a year where you can revel in the successful culmination of all that you’ve been working toward for the past several years. It’s going to be a matter of evaluating what’s finished and no longer necessary for you and then moving forward without a safety net. It's like people who are in a relationship that’s over with, and yet they won’t get a divorce or break up with their partner until they have another love interest waiting in the wings. Well, metaphorically speaking, 2016 won’t allow you to put things like that off. You must break off whatever thing or person in your life is not working for you, and then manage and master that empty space of nothingness for a while. Needless to say, even the best of us are scared silly when it comes to change. And then to change something without knowing exactly what’s next. That's very hard. Yet that’s what’s required this year. The tricky part? You’ll need to integrate the active, initiating energy of the year with your intensely emotional need for letting go. Get ready for lessons surrounding your sense of empowerment. You’ll be met with pivotal opportunities to learn deep lessons and move into the new 'you'. Your way must be clear and your life free of 'clutter' for the new beginnings, the whole new chapter of your life that is coming. You cannot start a new life with old 'baggage' dragging you down. This year you must let go of things that are no longer valid for you. For example, you may have an urge to "spring clean" both in a literal and a figurative sense, discarding everything that no longer serves your greatest good. The lesson is to do so with grace and gratitude. You are getting ready for the new and cannot be burdened by the old. This is a year of force and change, and a year when decisions will have to be made. 2016 will bring with it a wide variety of experiences and opportunities for you. If you have done the releasing work of the year, your last three months of the year should bring a sense of freedom, enjoyment and awakening. You are bringing to a conclusion what you have learned and created, and are now integrating it into your present life.
During 2016, you will be heading towards the beginning of a new chapter, a new beginning in 2017, so at times you may feel as though your life is in suspended animation. There may be a lack of energy to push ahead for what you want as you are still completing issues from the last few years, and you cannot go back to what you have left behind. The most supportive attitude to take during this year is to relax and ease up about situations, so that your life can flow and allow the right circumstances to happen naturally. There may be constant transformation in your life, and it can feel as though you are shedding your skin and growing a new one. At times, you may have a loss of faith in yourself or the future, but that is because you are developing a new outlook on life and it may take a while to process. You may radically change your diet, alter your hairstyle, buy completely new clothes, or go out with someone whom you may not have previously even considered. You may discover or rediscover your passions for art and music during this time. Anything is possible because you’re totally open to life. This year, you are also clearing emotional issues, which at times may make you feel physically wiped out or grumpy. Indeed, you may feel an urgency to come clean and express yourself honestly in order to be able to start all over again. However, there is no point criticising yourself for what you did not do, or for opportunities that you did not take; it is wasted energy. Now is the time to learn your lessons and move on. As you are letting go of old issues and forgiving the past, there may be much relief, along with feelings of liberation and joy. During this time, you may turn deeply inwards to your spirituality or find yourself interested in the religious sphere. Perhaps you will develop an acute interest in current affairs and find you are genuinely more interested in humanity’s welfare than ever before, or you may offer your help to the local community. You may feel like travelling; you are likely to be eager to discover new lands and different cultures which can improve your knowledge of the world and expand your spiritual awareness. 2016 may feel a little like sitting an exam where you are anticipating your mark at the end of it. However, only you decide if you pass or fail this time; you are the one giving yourself the Brownie points, so judge yourself kindly and feel happy in the knowledge that you have done your best. You will likely feel a tremendous amount of excitement about what is to come but, at the same time, you may have some fears about letting go. Remember that the more you let go of, the more room there is in your life to be filled during the coming year.
Not all endings have unhappy emotions attached. Some situations will be concluded, bringing you much relief. Don’t assume the worst. Accept that your past is the ground you had to cover in order to get to where you want to be. Your understanding of this will make 2016 one of the most exhilarating and dynamic journeys you will ever travel.
Key words for you this year are: endings, transition, charity, friendships and wisdom.
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Thank you for the wonderful insight! A lot of this hit home. I feel like ever since 2016 started, things have been pretty stop and go. I'll have a period of good days, where I feel great about life, and then I'll go through a period of days where things seem really dismal. It seems like the first half of 2016 might be like this because of all the change going on.