Help with my reading please
Thank you Hanswolfgang. I do hope that you are right and I will live in the present and not the past nor the future. I will keep you posted although it doesnt look too hopeful at the moment
Hanswolfgang: You didn't answer my other question...Is he going to marry me???? Does he truly love me to stop his deceits and make a committment...Or do I need to get out of it ////
Please expain this to me...MCPeace...
create a synthesis between materialism and
spiritualism. There is no need to divide them, because
man is both body and soul. If man can be both body and
soul, then religion should be both materialist and
Is he going to marry me???? No.
Does he truly love me to stop his deceits: Yes.
...Or do I need to get out of it ////: No.
Please expain this to me: Come into a harmony with your world. Discretion and a true heart are the key to survival.
But you may not be sensitive. Whatsoever you are
doing, you may not be sensitive. You have become
insensitive because in insensitivity there is a certain
security. If you do not feel much, you suffer less. The
person who feels much suffers much. Because of this, you
have tried to make yourself insensitive. So when
something happens so intensely that it is impossible to
avoid it, then only do you become aware. Otherwise you
go dead, asleep. You move on. That insensitivity will
create problems. Then when you meditate, you will not
be sensitive to what is happening to you.
I agree about your last statement. I have become numb to some extent. My past been very hurtful by my mother, father, ex husband,siblings and bad events in my life has made me this way. I've learned in my heart to forgive all of them. I longer play the VICTIM Role in my life. I see the light but sometimes Relationships have been the hardest to figure out. I've been divorce for 14 yrs now and looking for someone to settle down with. Only had a 5 true relationships since my divorce. I don't bring them around to my family unless I know for sure. I'm always alone in family functions-tired of hearing my family questioning me about my status-especially if I turned LESBIAN since no man in my life.. Secondly When I love, I love hard I devote myself 100%.
Some of my relationships have been very hurtful..Lying, deceit and cheating have been the culprits. So yes, those situation have made me stay in my shell. A man will need to really show me true dedication, loyalty and securtiy before I can truely open up.
Paul, I feel a strong connection but has lied to me so many times and question his judgement.
A previous relationship Abel 11-11-75 (before Paul) I trusted him so much and I allowed him close to my family. Went so far to introduce me to his family as his future wife and looking for a ring....Long story short . He lied -was married to someone else ...I sometimes feel Marriage is not in my future
Abel 11-11-75: Though this is about expanded consciousness, it is also about negative thinking. He must let go of many negative mental patterns accumulated from past lives if he is to access the inherent power. He could do and reach the very heights of recognition. This is also sexual enjoyment and pleasure seeking. If this is allowed to dominate, much time and energy is wasted that would otherwise elevate him to great accomplishment. He is here to end a major cycle in his soul's development, a completion that should see him giving his wealth of knowledge to the world. There are some debts to be paid, but once these debts are paid, he can proceed with his cosmic task of enlightening the world. Financially he is always assisted and he does well in his own business if he doesn't let it spoil his spiritual values. He cannot be totally materialistic or mercenary.
In this world you are only able to drop things when
the pain becomes so unbearable that you cannot afford to
keep them anymore. The identification you have with
your body is not yet so intensely agonizing to you. So
no matter how much the sages explain it to you, no
matter that the mystics say, "You are not the body,
drop the identification with it!" you just hear them
saying it, but inside you are rigidly attached to your
body. You may regularly repeat such statements as "I am
not the body" -- you may have recited this many
thousands of times -- but still you are convinced
internally that you are the body. Any hurt to the body
is a hurt to you. If the body is ill, you feel ill. You
feel beautiful if your body is beautiful, and if your
body is ugly, you feel ugly. When the body grows old,
you grow old along with it. Naturally, when your body
dies you will die. How ever much others say it, at the
most you can create a false illusion around yourself, but
without experiencing, the truth does not arise in you.
So you have certainly the intention of
getting rid of some fear, but enhance your fear
because that is the only way to destroy it.
Hanswolfgang: Thank you very much for all your insights. I completely understand your statements and I will keep in mind ....Its was ackward when I realize that these two men that affected my life greatly were Scorpios, Since they were born in same sign does that mean their readings are similar? The reason I ask that is when I met them I realized the same characters, likes and dislikes, even dress the same... When I met Paul I picked on the same material things he owned as Abel. Funny, they wore the same watch, sunglasses, shoes, and show-offs...Very materialistic, both of them. Presently both of them are having financial difficulties, they were forced to stop buying expensive items, stop going out to fancy restruants...Paul lost many jobs, and Abel is having problems keeping his shop open...
When I picked up on these things I asked Paul about his DOB and thats when I realized it..So do they have the same readings eventhough born in different years....
Hi Hanswolfgang I really wish that I understood what you had written there lol. I dont understand all of your riddles
Since they were born in same sign does that mean their readings are similar? No.
So do they have the same readings eventhough born in different years....: Yes.
You will have to find a synchronicity with the
heartbeat of Tao. You will have to fall in rhythm. You
will have to attain to a kind of harmony. Hence, Sufis
are so mad about music, singing, chanting, dancing. Not
reasoning, but dancing -- because only in dance do you
start falling with the heartbeat of the whole. Only in
dance does the moment of grace arrive when you are not
and Tao is. Only in dance does the separation between
the mind and the body disappear -- and you are one
whole, one piece, all together, no more fragmentary.
There was a doctor who was tired of a young man,
because every day he was standing there. He was poor,
he could not pay, and the doctor had tried in every way
to convince him, "You are perfectly healthy."
But every day something new. One day it is
stomachache, one day it is a headache.... He told Osho,
"What should I do? It seems cruel because he is poor,
an orphan, uneducated, unemployed..."
Osho said, "Do one thing: send him to me and just tell
him, `He is a very difficult person; he knows, but he
does not want to waste his time, so he is very
secretive -- but he has the power ... if he touches
water, the water can heal anything -- but he will not
touch it. But you remember, remain insistent. Sit in
front of his door.'"
He came nearabout nine o'clock in the evening and he
said, "I am suffering badly from stomachache."
Osho said, "I am not a doctor and if you are suffering,
suffer. Why should you bother me? When I have
stomachache have I ever gone to you and tortured you?"
He said, "No, you have never come."
Osho said, "That makes it simple; just go home."
He said, "It is strange, I have been told by Doctor
Barat, the famous doctor, that you have a power, a
spiritual power. If you can give me a glass of water
and touch the water I will be healed."
Osho said, "I cannot do that."
He said, "Why can't you do that? It is not much I am
asking. I can bring my own water, I can bring my own
glass; you simply touch...!"
Osho said, "I cannot touch at all! Why should I lose my
He said, "Now, you have accepted that you have
He ran home and brought a big bottle full of water.
Osho said, "I am not going to do it because a
stomachache is not something immortal, it will
disappear sometime. It will teach you patience,
suffering, acceptability and it will give you great
qualities. I cannot disturb your life."
He said, "You seem to be a very hard person. You
cannot just touch my bottle?"
Osho said, "I cannot touch it."
Twelve o'clock in the night... Osho used to live with his
aunt; she was listening from her room. Finally, she
came out and said, "You are also almost insane! If he
wants to be touched, just touch the water and get rid
of him. Wasting time for three hours. I have been
listening -- there is a limit!"
Osho said, "Nobody can convince me, you simply go and
She said, "I cannot sleep because this man is sitting
And the man said, "This is a good opportunity." He
touched the feet of Osho´s aunt and said, "Just help me, he
seems to have no heart at all... three hours and I am
suffering so much from stomachache."
Osho said, "Listen, I can touch, but you have to promise
me not to tell anybody, because I don't want a queue
the whole day, I have to do something else too."
He said, "I promise, absolutely promise: in the name
of God I will never tell anybody."
Osho touched his bottle. He immediately drank the whole
bottle and he said, "My God, I have never felt so high,
not only is the stomach completely cured, other small
diseases, they are gone and I feel so much power."
Osho said, "Remember the promise."
He said, "Just one thing, my mother is very sick."
Osho said, "You have started."
He said, "No, I will not tell anybody, I will just
fill the same bottle."
Osho said, "That you can do, but don't bring anybody
here and don't bring your bottle again! Once I have
touched, that's all!"
And you will be surprised to know that he became a
healer instead of being a crackpot hypochondriac. He
would fill the same bottle with new water. But because
Osho had touched the bottle, even though the water went on
changing, he was curing everybody. People started
coming to his home from faraway villages, and he
enjoyed it very much. He came to thank Osho.
Osho said, "You should not come here."
He said, "No, I have not come to ask anything, but
just to tell you that the bottle is working."
Osho said, "You cure as many people as possible."
After many years Osho passed from that village again. By
that time he had become a very famous healer.
Doctor Barat, a very famous doctor, said to Osho, "What
have you done? Because I used to have migraine once in
a while and I had to ask that stupid boy, `Will you
give me some water from your bottle?' And it is a
miracle -- the migraine disappeared."
Osho said, "It is spiritual healing, but never tell
anybody about it."
He said, "But I had never thought that you really
have that power. I was just joking and just wanted to
get rid of that fellow. And now whenever I have any
trouble, instead of my own medicines, I send my car to
find that boy. He comes in the car with the bottle --
just a cup of water and it works!"
Osho said, "It has to work... spiritual power."
The question is if you trust, then anything is possible.
Hello HANSWOLFGANG: Ive decided to let things go as they are with Paul. The only thing I'm doing is creating negativity around since I'm asking myself repeatedly why hasn't he called, just sends short emails...Obviously he is secretly keeping something from and playing his games again... I will continue with my meditations, job searches and spend more time with my family. I need more positive energy around me at this time and worrying about his wearabouts is not helping. I'm better woman than that and deserve better from a Man.. Just want to thank you for all your advice and I will contact you soon
there is a famous poem of Jalaluddin Rumi;
A lover comes to his beloved's home, knocks on the
The beloved asks, "Who is there?"
And the lover says, "I am -- your lover."
The beloved says, "The house of love is so small, it
cannot contain two, so please go back. When you are no
more, then come again. The house of love cannot contain
two, it can only contain one."
So far so good!
The lover goes to the forest, he becomes an ascetic.
He meditates, he prays to God. His prayer is only one:
"Dissolve me!" Many moons come and go, months pass,
years pass, and one day he comes back. He knocks again
on the door, and the beloved asks the same question:
"Who is there?"
And he says, "Now I am no more, only you are."
And Rumi says:
The doors open and the lover is received in the home
Then who is
the person who is saying "I am no more"? Even to say
that "I am no more," you are needed. It is as foolish
as if you went and knocked at somebody's house and he
leaned out of the window and said, "I am not at home."
That is self-contradictory; you cannot say that. To say
it is to prove that you are.
beloved says, "Go back again because you are still
there. First you were positively there, now you are
negatively there, but it makes no difference."
The lover goes back. Now there is no point in praying
because prayer has not helped. In fact, prayer cannot
help: in prayer the duality persists. You are praying
to somebody; God becomes your "thou." God cannot help.
Now he becomes a Zen monk -- not a devotee but a real
meditator. He simply goes deep within himself,
searching and seeking. "Where is this'I'?" He tries to
find out where it is. And anybody who goes in is bound
not to find it because it is not there; it is
non-existential, it is only a belief. So he searches
and searches and finds it nowhere.
So he comes back, knocks on the door. The beloved
asks the same question:'Who is there?" And there is no
answer because there is nobody to answer. Just silence.
She asks again, "Who is there?" but the silence
deepens. She asks again, "Who is there?" but the
silence is absolute. She opens the door. Now the lover
has come, but he is no more; there is nobody to answer.
He has to be taken inside the home, taken by the hand.
He is completely, utterly empty.
This is what Zen people call "emptied suchness."
hello, i am evy
i asked why my father died and took three cards
about the past: the world card came up
about the present: the star
about the future: death
what does this mean?
Hanswolfgang: Not sure if I understand but let me tell you if this is what you are trying to say: Once he is ready to knock at my door there will be no one to answer since he kept saying there was only room for one several times. If not then clarify in simplist terms please. I love your knowledge of all these poems and letters....Food for my brain..lol
I've given him so many chances and made myself available. I made my share of mistakes in this relationship too but always opened my heart to him. I truly love him with all my heart and hurts to be ignored..Fear the unknown..just typing this to you I'm getting emotional and fighting back my tears...I have to be strong and let go what probably wasn't mine to begin with....
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i asked why my father died and took three cards
about the past: the world card came up
about the present: the star
about the future: death
what does this mean?
He was in harmony with his world, then a hope arose which pulled him out of his body, in which he was firmly rooted. Now he will know his goal, transformation.
So every moment of love will be followed by a moment
of repulsion. The vital energy exists in polarities. It
never exists at one pole. It cannot! And whenever you
try to make it do so, you try the impossible.
clarify in simplist terms please: patterns in your soul have caused this.
A dream is a very small thing. How can you enter into a dream totally? One can enter more intensely, more passionately into a feeling; even then one is not total. Totality happens only when you enter into being, but feeling is closer to being. Feeling is like a door of the temple. The moment you stand at the door, there are both possibilities: you can run out, you can run in.
Hanswolfgang: You're saying I'm the cause of our problem "My Soul Patterns are causing this raft, I don't understand how but will take your advise...Thanks
people only pretend the game of love, they don't go
into it. They keep a distance from any deep commitment,
from any total involvement, because if you really go
very close in the world of love, the flame of love is
going to burn your ego.
Hanswolfgang: Hello again my friend, hope everything is all well for you. Well its been two months since I lost my job and needing another reading. IS THERE ANOTHER JOB COMING SOON? I've had several interviews and great prospects of having a job but something always goes wrong. Many offers placed on the table and during the investigation process something negative happens. I tried to do some of my own investigation work on this and ask frequently why the CHANGE of mind. By law the only info required to ask a previous employer is dates of employment. I'm feeling as if they are BLACK BALLING my job oppurtunities...NEED YOUR GUIDANCE