Help!!! Have I lost my Cancer husband for good???
You are holding onto a dream, a fantasy of what this man could be, but not what he really is, which is weak, self-centred and selfish. Stop dreaming yourself into misery and lose the loser/user. Why the heck are you apologizing to him - your self-esteem seems to have been totally wrecked by this fool. He is the one in the wrong. Get out fast before you lose whatever little bit of yourself you have left. Put yourself and your kids first because they are obviously not first with your husband.