CWB needs insight thank u
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to work with n for my cancer man charlie
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he is a retired fireman who owns a condo rental business
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I duno, all i want is be with him lol
n working side by side would b a dream come true. n with him i felt n feel i wont need no degree. that with him i could n can obtain it
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yeah i know question is what bc ive tried my hand at almost everything
First things first CWB, no matter what happens, or what you decide to do; YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE.
Let me just say that again...
YOU. ARE. NOT. A . FAILURE.
As Thomas Edison said, "I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
I've been where you are. I started a Genetics course in Uni. Dropped out after first year. Spent $6,000+ on a Computer course. Didn't finish it. Did a 3 year course Computer Studies. Never finished the 3rd year.
If your heart is truly not in it, then you won't be able to finish it.
And that is fine.
I also know what it's like to not want to disappoint your mother. I am exactly the same. Welcome to our life as a fish lol
So what is holding you back with regards to Plan A?
thank u so much, im about to weep lol
what holds me back?
1. money to relocate
2. that my charlies wants me in his life n to work with n for him
3. green card
4. all my stuff what to do of it, sell or move over if i get to relocate
What do YOU want. What is the main intention? Financial? Purpose? Education is an open door to possability---it is a journey that often twists and turns and introduces you to places you never dreamed. Sometimes God (or your version of higher power) has a bigger dream than you can dream right now. I had the same beginnings---my mother wanting to put her money up for school but with her idea of my talents and future---her eye on the prize was buisness--a money maker. OK the thing is I'm capable of succeeding at many things! As are you but we must balance the two realities--earth and Spirit. Maybe there are people to meet and discoveries to make that do not fit into the logically plan so your anxiety is spot on---you know there is more to your life than just choosing a subject and mastering it. The bottom line for you is the success failure issue. Your perspective versus others that get to you---are important to you. I got the same thing growing up---I constantly changed course---my parents seen it as a flaw---years later in my forties I met an older woman a mentor who was like me and made me see how gifted that is---to have many irons in the fire---to be an artist---but maybe next year write a book---to take a playwrite class but maybe for two years do computer graphics! All education is valuable---it opens your world wide. Believe in yourself---avoid thinking of changes as failures---people who lead the most spiritual lives often take many roads as they gather lessons. Charmed one---there is no map---just an intention to get out there--to begin to begin and follow your bliss. It's usually a mistake to choose education on a money return priority. It clouds the spiritual path. You are not going to be able to please others and live your truth without pressure from success failure perspective as you must consider your personal growth. Just sign up for a class and let it unfold---even if you drop a class you learn what you DON'T WANT! It's all good! Just keep on keepin on! BLESSINGS
Thanx Blmoon sweetie
is juss as i mentioned b4 i dunno if i can see myself do it if i continue. if i dont what ought i pursue? im at loss. my biggest wish is as also mentioned b4 to work with n for plus to b with charlie, i think my biggest fear is dissappointing family along to hear those accusations again. i cant face it again.
i juss need to hear see what ill do say come august 2011
Hey, CWB, aka Cappy,:) I've been on a search for you trying to find something that can give you a brighter outlook...:) I have tried to tap into you, but theres a feeling of self doubt that I can't go any further, or the experience is not there for me.:( It could be my self doubt I'm picking up on or yours or maybe the both of us..lol
I know this may not be what your searching for, but i hope that some of this will help...I feel your sadness, and this is not like you cappy..But you know its OK, we all have the self doubts and need to reach out...Ok so your 39, and i know you want to be with Charlie...Ok, now i ask you this, with no disrespect to you dear friend...Would Charlie help you to finance a trip to the states and have a trial period with him...
also I feel your turmoil in your relationships with the men you love still have that hold on you...I also feel you can't or are afraid if you make a decision on the relationship that you want has to also be decided. Love is most confusing at the best of times but you have two men whom you love with all of your heart...but thats another obstacle in making your decision on schooling..All this has to come from you, in that place where you are afraid to look...Just my 2 cents sweetie...I wish that you could see yourself through the eyes of others and to take that respect and admiration and use it for yourself..You have such a gift with words, and your compassion is felt...I know that it has caused us a few moments but i think i get it now CW...Love for you and the belief that you can do anything and have anything but you must BELIEVE...
Yes, mom will be peed off for a moment, you know this..But if you can change your way in approaching her without conflict and just tell her what you are telling us, do you think she would be open to listen to your thoughts and feelings...I realize how difficult it is for you to be an adult, but your mother being involved in the financial aspects of your education..Ok i will leave you with this underneath, attached with a huge hug, Love,Light,Abundance,Peace,answers and laughter..I sincerely wish i could offer you more. x o
aka my journey
Pisces (Feb 19- Mar 20)
2011 is a two-sided coin for Pisces! Looking ahead to the Pisces 2011 yearly horoscope, there will be major success when it comes to all matters not related to interpersonal relationships. Career, money and the desire to learn and grow will shape the first half of the year. The latter part of the Pisces 2011 yearly horoscope will require the effort and energy that got you to this place to begin with, but that’s okay. Pisces has never been afraid of hard work.
When it comes to interpersonal relationships, Pisces 2011 will offer a bit more of a challenge. Many issues will require you to take the time to understand issues and resolve them. The good news is that you are up to the challenge. Sensitive and known to struggle, Pisces will welcome the peace brought on by 2011.
Pisces in 2011
Pisces 2011 Career and Income Horoscope
Your hard work has finally paid off, as you will surely see in your Pisces 2011 yearly horoscope . In the earlier part of the year, you will most likely see dividends on the effort you put forth from 2010. If you haven’t been laying any groundwork whatsoever, it doesn’t matter much. Luck is with you and in the earlier part of the year, it will feel like you just can’t lose. Everything’s falling into place and, in those moments where you think all if lost, something even better is in the works. Take advantage of this flourishing time in the first quarter of your Pisces 2011 yearly horoscope because after March, career and money will become a much more complex issue. Get ready to work harder because that lucky streak of big rewards with little effort will come to an end.
Pisces 2011 Love, Family and Social life Horoscope
As for family and friends, things are good. It will be a steady beginnning of comfort and familiarity but watch your step. In July, a certain relationship will get a little rocky. Use this time as a period to reevaluate. Is your friendship or relationship giving you what you need? If the answer is yes, then you need to take a look at what you’re giving in return. Problems are coming from somewhere. Take time to get to the root of the issue and work through it. Although there will be room for misunderstanding until September or October, it’s important to invest a little TLC where it matters. If things get rocky, listen to this Pisces 2011 yearly horoscope and make your relationships count.
Pisces 2011 Education and Traveling Horoscope
Full of vitality, you welcome all that life has to offer you in terms of education. After all, it was learning how to excel that brought you success in the first place. Your interest in learning will get stronger at the midpoint in the year, whereas the desire to travel will make sense during the stable and successful early months of Pisces 2011.
Pisces 2011 Health Horoscope
It’s easy to feel good when life is going so well! After all the work you’ve done, you deserve rewards. But don’t let up. Health has a way of sneaking away from you if you stop putting in the time. In spite of the success you will experience at the beginning of the year, maintain moderation in all things. This will keep you out of your head and fight off the indecision you are often prone to. So, get out there and go for it, Pisces..
ps i know you may have read your year ahead but i wanted to repost this....
MyJourney, you are simply overflowing with compassion. It's a great sight to behold.
Love & light to you,
MyJourney, my sis in spiritrealms n real life
As iread the would ur charlie finance n trial period u i heard from him a resounding yes after i had mentioned dunno hafta ask. he kinda cut me off. im in tears.
as i slept to today my soul reached out to those that gets me understands me n accepts me as i am whims n all. Alden showed n we was at a shingding where all his nmine old friends was, those we have in common. i know i said dang no camera wait i have my phone cam, lol i know i bent down to hug him n my soul cried i love u somuch.
that said its the compassiona he shows me, that he gets how i am n feel. thats precious its love in a way , but i must b careful not to mistake it for what we know as true blue truest kinds of soul flame love.
that said it could also been charlie, bc all inoticed was hair n a cheek n a warm loving feeling. charlie is all bizz when he answer phone but when he hears its me his voice takes on a warm loving intimiate im here im listeneng i wanna know u voice. blows me.
by it imean ive more often felt the jalousy, the put downs than compassion understandingn love. n pisces as i am n sensitive i tend to at times mistake kind words n compassion for love.
mayb im worng mayb im not. dunno i think im both. i dunno what that dream astral mean or will mean time will show. either way its a miracle when im with either one of em.
for not its the workpath that weighs heavy. i often told myself gurl u was born in the wrong centrury, bc basically all u want to b is a stay at home mom n do ya thing like crafts n stuff
My sis thanx its been awhike since i read year scope. each scope changes every 4 minutes so each one sees is one made in the moment but has changed times over since printed. yet something sticks like a red thread through it. thank u sweetie
You know, stay at home moms making crafts is a viable way of making money...
HEY CWB !! Hello shee, PH nice to meet you here etc etc. Now, about last night : 22:00 i say g'night to CB (that's Shee and Bee) really tired i hit the bed but not before i snooped into this thread. Tried to sleep next, zillion things on my mind, this also. At midnight i get out of bed go to kitchen for a smoke and then it hits me : FOCUS. This word comes like a bee in my mind along with some thoughts. Too many paths CWB, too many roads to travel while you only need one. The universe has wheels YOU set in motion Look deep inside find what your heart REALLY wants make a decision and stick to it. Spirit awaits for you to choose and then it will reveal the way, because there is always a way.
OK, i put out the cigarette grab my newly acquired power animal deck, i go to the living room and start shuffling in the dark. Must shuffled for 2-3 minutes then i abruptly stop. I turn on the lights i was supposed to pick the first 3 cards (not really but i hadn't bothered to carefully read the accompanying booklet then lol) well, i didn't. I just HAD to see the last card.
BLACK PANTHER-"Follow your passion".
What next ? I kneel on the carpet and fan the cards. I pass my right hand over them trying to decide which card to pick next. I just HAD to pick the first one.
HAWK-"Focus. Choose your priorities and eliminate all distractions"
Now that freaked me out lol i tried to pick a third card but really felt i shouldn't. That was it. Stop.
Hahaha focus hocus pocus in the middle of the night hope this helped a bit CWB !
And you still maintain you're not psychic? Your oracles would disagree lol
Few miutes later : Hey, not fair CWB ! Just tried to help.....ribbit !