Hello, I'm new to this so please be patient - Pisces
I am a Pisces Sun, Saq-Asc, with my Moon in Capricorn –
Born on March 3 in Michigan...
Anyone else with the same birth date?
I am in the middle of a marriage that seems to be
Headed for dissolution - though I tried in vain to help,
Understand, fix, change - etc. to no avail.
My husband is a Gemini Sun, Cancer-Asc, with his Moon in Saq.
The past 18-24 months have been like no other-dare I say nothing
I could have imagined in my wildest dreams.
That is to say he touch our lives as I knew them
And blasted them wide open - complete with lots of drama, and
My lil' heart and head confused and hurting.
I am trying to clean up the mess which of course has
My name on most everything as well and realize,
(My clarity seems to be a moment to moment thing) …
I am trying to get my brain around the notion that I have
Journeyed with him as far as I can mentally, emotionally
And physically go. The writing on the wall says,
"Tamara, you can only change yourself, and though you
Will continue to love him, (he's a human being & I'm have no
Need or desire to be other than true to myself - a loving being),
And wish him wish well it would appear to be time I figure out
How to formally end the relationship/marriage and begin
The healing of Tamara and continue learning how to place
Myself first not last... Honoring myself and there by
I would love some insight, feedback, help, and prayers
- You name it. This is my first marriage and first divorce.
This is Nathan's fourth marriage, 3rd wife and will be his
Fourth divorce. He married his first wife twice.
I know I have been called naive, that maybe accurate,
My perception is that I believe people are honest and that
Given the opportunity, (enough time), they will rise to their
Fullest potential. I continue to maintain that belief, and
Realize that in this situation I will have withered and
Faded away long before he fulfills his potential – if he chooses
To at all.
It is time I am proactive and I'm looking for insight into
The whole world of divorce, we have no children, some
Assets however. I am ready to have healthy, loving,
Caring, supportive relationships in my life again...
Eager to begin reading your replies.
Thank you for any and all input
In light & love
I am ~