Twinsoul-Taurus Girl In Need Of Insight
Hi there twinsoul, hate to be a burden on you I know your pretty busy lol but I was wondering if you could do a personal reading on me and my situation. I started this thread just in case you couldnt find the one I sent you. Please forgive me for this long story. I thought details were important so I wrote in detail. By the way, if you wanted to do a reading on me and my ex, I was born on May 6th 1992 9:28 and he is November 1st 1991. I just wanted some insight as to what happened and my future.
Here it is :
3 months ago me and my Scorpio ex boyfriend (November 1st 1991) broke up over (it was brief and brutal for me) very mysterious and vague circumstances. We were together for a year (4 months on/off and 8 months long distance) and he was very sweet, passionate, loving yet brutally honest and emotional. I loved him and cared for him and I can honestly say he felt the same way (he routinely told me that and was the first to say so)
Our long distance relationship was very special and amazing we rarely had problems outside the typical calling issue at times lol but he was the same person nonetheless and we actually continously made plans to see each other with him initating it sometimes and me doing it sometimes. Our feelings grew over time and eventually we found time to see each other-I was going to school up there in NY and he planned to let me move in with him and even pay since I was going to school (but I wanted to chip in just because I dont like for people to do everything for me)
A month or so prior to moving in with him, he kept warning me that NYC might be getting a little too dangerous and expensive for me because of the inflation and of things he's said been going on. Then he told me of a crazy not so nice roomie situation he didnt want me involved in but my stubborness (it was my dream school and I didnt care) prompted me to continue with the move in. Then everything got crazy once he told me some people shot at his house and said he needs to move immeadiately. Weeks prior to moving in-he told me he got an apartment approved in VA (where we met and dated in person) and wanted me to come along and kept telling me there are film schools here for me and that NYC just to dangerous for him and me. Disappointed (he was the only guy in NYC I knew and trusted), I transfered schools and once told him, he was estatic and told me he couldnt wait to move in with me and even kept talking to my mom about the great news. He even said, if I wasnt with him or we broke up, I would see a grown man cry.
A week later , he ends up in VA (he hadnt moved in the apartment yet) to live with his family (he and his family has had a tumultous relationship) until he got to move in the apartment with me. The next day he texts me he's sorry but he's leaving again. I try to calm him down and comfort him, so I call him and ask him what happened. At first, he's emotional and kind of stubborn and tells me things dont work out for him whatever he does. Then all of a sudden he flies into a rage and becomes moody and insensitive when I try to give him suggestions and ask him what happened with his family. He merely tells me that he got into a fight with his family and got kicked out and that he doesnt have time to sit around and figure out what he needs to do and needs an immediate solution. He also tells me that there's one reason he'll stay in VA but it wont do him any good right now. I start to cry and he tells me crying wont solve anything and he doesnt have time to worry about that right then.
Upset angry and hurt, I just get off the phone because he said he needs to save his battery. He txts me 5 minutes later saying please stop crying I see you doing it. It wont help you. So like an hour later, I txts him I sorry about what happened but I love you wish you the best and hope everything works out for you, txt me whenever you want to talk. He doesnt tell me thank you but god dont you get it my phone is dying I really need it stop it. I dont text him at all later.
The next morning he txts good morning. I tell him about his battery and he gets upset and says I thought I said good morning. I call him and tell him Im sorry about our minor disagreement aobut you leaving and I hope you know I still love you. He says you see how you felt and I saw how I felt (think he got the words confused lol) and tells me he'll call me on the next flight to Miami (where he was going) I txt him later saying he needs to get his emotions together and sort his head out and not call me yet but I tell him I love him and hope you feel better. HE texts me great I have one bar and call me to banter about his battery. ANGRY and HURT, I dont call him at all (the last txt I sent afterwards was I was just trying to tell you nice things before my phone got cut off because I didnt know what would happen to you)
A week later I tell him my phone is back J just in case he needed to talk or txt. HE STILL TALKS to me about the time his battery went dead!!!! So I finally tell him how silly it was of him to still talk about it. He txts me deuces and tells me he has enough on his plate. FED UP with this I tell him I was just trying to be supportive and told him it was his loss. I also told him he needed to hit me up when he needed spelling lessons since Im not going to be disrespected by a guy that couldn't spell deuces in the first place.
It has been 3 months since the break up and I have had no contact with him since that day. Ive resisted my urge to see if he's ok only because he couldnt appreciate it when I did really care (And still do-but as a person not a boyfriend) since then Ive been working on myself and have improved in a great way not to say I was immature at all. I am just reflecting on everything now but I do have some unanswered questions and would like some imput on this situation.
1. Do you think he still cares and do you think he ever cared?
2. Do you think he will ever contact me?
3. What is your take on the situation and what happened?
Update; I had the craziest thing happened to me today as well. His number popped up on my call log when I never called him or anything (I dont have a touchscreen or smart phone to accidently call it) His number isnt in my phone at all anymore and I know my baby brother couldnt just randomly jumble his number together. After that, I kept seeing his area code numbers everywhere (he's the only person with that area code I know) What do you think happened and what does this all mean?
Hello again Asia118X
I am really feeling your frustrations and your desperation. Know that what you are going through is perfectly normal. Accept the process, but here's the key:
You're feeling like there's something you need to know, some bit of information or a piece of the puzzle, that if you could just find it, everything will become clear.
But you are frustrated because you are being blocked. You are not getting your questions answered, but there is a reason for that too. You are being blocked because you are asking the wrong questions and refusing to accept any answer other than what you want to hear.
Your entire life is centred around your ex, even your education plans. Can you see why you are meeting such resistance? The Universe is telling you this is really not good for you.
I know all too well that the truth hurts, but we need to move through that pain because the truth really does set us free.
Regarding your numbers, your angels are trying to send you a message. Look up Angel Numbers on the Internet for your answer.
Hey PisceanHealer, thank you for your concerns. Im going through the accepting the process stage but I guess its just that with me doing it alone its kind of crazy. I only ask questions about my ex in my forums because I dont want to bother anyone else in my family especially my mother with this burden because she has so much going on in her life. But Im sure I'll pull through especially before I go to school.
I can see if I am being met with some resistance because it isnt good for me in fact it makes perfect sense. Yesterday's situation just brought it up again and it was quite odd as a matter of fact and I had no idea why it happened. The funny thing is when Im out having fun or talking to new people I dont think about him. I guess thats just all I need honestly. I need to be out in the world. Im stuck at home or at work most of the time alone and dealing with my feelings alone. Which works out well sometimes and sometimes it doesnt because I get so confused. Ima very strong person for what Ive been through and what Im becoming but this one and the way Im asking questions make me feel so weak sometimes.
As for education plans, he was the only person in NYC so when he changed plans (and I was planning on moving in) I couldnt go to school and by the way I had plans for NYC way before I knew him (no offense to you). Now as for my school in Miami (Same school in NYC but different branch) I chose it because it had better credentials than all the other schools I researched. I planned on going to the one in Hollywood but too much money lol. I didnt want to avoid Miami because of him at all and thats what I planned to do at first but I wanted to be strong and worry about myself so I didn't.
I can understand if your concerned and sometimes Im concerned myself because I dont know if I am worrying too much or what. So thank you for grounding me and telling me whats going on but others can view this when they dont know the full dimension of things (no offense to you lol) but I really appreciate your kindness, concern and compassion, Your a great person with a beautiful spirit. Keep grounding me if you will, it helps me regardless of how I feel so thank you so much and god bless.
You're welcome And no offence is taken.
As I've said, what you are going through is perfectly normal. You have up days and down days, but those down days will gradually be fewer in number. As long as you learn to keep letting go.
Easier said than done. I know
I have to agree with PisceanHealer, I'm sort of following your thread, no, I'm not a
stalker lol..just trying to get a feeling from your posts..
Just my opinion now, i feel you need closure, and sometimes we have to find that within ourselves..Loving someone can be like the ever -ready bunny,asking the same questions but getting the same results...May you find that the pain lessons with each day and you replace the unknown with positives...
Love and light and many Angels sent your way...
Thanks guys I really appreciate this Im may be hurt but never down! Getting stronger and better everyday. I still think of him from time to time but life still goes on for me and it's going pretty great. Just going through and process in taking time to journey onto my inner self to understand myself and my often turbulent emotions. I'll be fine thank you so much everyone god bless you all! :). I'm going to start a thread for everyone who has helped me on my journey I really appreciate it and it will be coming soon!