Blmoon, I am trying to connect with my fearlessness in moving forward, in work and relationships. It’s been a tough road lately, I want to “see myself with clarity” I see how I’ve always held myself back, and created my own trauma by self imposed limitations. I’m trying to access that inner wisdom, that “knowing” and know what “it” feels like. So I can follow that wisdom/guidance and hopefully never feel fearful again. I have noticed lately how having any fear in any decision in life actually throws off the good balance that our souls are wanting to cultivate, like our soul knows there’s nothing to be afraid of, and is trying to guide us to that infinite abundance we can all tap, yet our mind and ego is in the way saying, “well do you want to be alone forever? or what if you lose all your assets by taking this chance, or you didn’t do that great of a job. my mind says stuff like maybe I’m not good enough to be doing what I’m doing, because I failed at something or made a mistake. Make sense? A couple things I’ve recently been aware of.... You ever read any books by Gavin debecker? One is called the gift of fear, it’s been on my mind a lot, and I’ve really noticed how the only time fear is of true assistance is when a person is actually in real danger, say an attack from another being or animal. The 2nd thing I became aware of- I really love the comedian Dave Chappelle, I like watching his old stuff on youtube.. anyway, I came across some of his first stand ups, and he wasn’t that good at all! I laughed so hard to myself, because I thought to myself what a cliche, but so very true, he just pushed right on through, didn’t give up on his “knowing”, his dream, to be one of the greatest comedians. And he’s awesome now! it just made me realize that I really allow my mistakes to cause me to shrink, to feel unworthy, and I question myself or many things. But since I have noticed this, I told myself no more! I am moving forward with a roar, I will lose these inabitions and this soul sucking fear, and I don’t care if it brings me to the edge of insanity or the edge of a financial cliff, or the edge of whatever... anyway, thanks, this resonated with me! Hugs to you as you move through your recovery, I am sending love to your body!

@anon-undertaker-0 Thank you for replying to this post your suggestion made for a lot of thought, and much laughter as I explored different options. I have decided to become a royal fashion and construction expert or how to be a disable cougar Thank you and take care

Jodomi, if you feel that everything you are doing is wrong, perhaps you need to change the orientation you use to make choices or decisions? For example, if you tend to be impulsive or just do what you want without considering alternatives or consequences, then maybe you need to stop and think more before you act. Or if you over-analyse and agonize over making a decision, maybe you should trust your gut reactions and instincts more. What sort of decision-maker are you?

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@jayann https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb/basics/relationships

Hi Jayann, What can you do to make yourself smile? What plan can you put in place to make your next step better?

@jayann Both of those songs were knee jerk reactions. I do believe they hold simple truths you can apply. What really comes to mind is the collection of songs/videos by the Lumineers, known as The Ballad of Cleopatra. Warning... at face value this collection can appear very gloomy and without hope, when in fact it's just the opposite. Just like any work of art it holds multiple meanings to the eye of the beholder, Google for the basic concept/theme. I do believe there's a strong connection between the Lumineer's character Ophelia and the one found in William Shakespeare's ''Hamlet", and we can't forget Cleopatra... Very deep indeed. “What We Do In Life Echoes In Eternity"

@squadus can you help? @bleudawn what do you think? @Moon50 @Blmoon

@jayann 2019 will I be happy Self - ace of swords = be motivation and take action Higher Power - page of pentacles = need to put in place clear plans for achieving my dreams and goals Situation - 7 of wands = will have to stand my ground recent past - 5 of cups = what can go right from this point onwards. near future - justice = look closely at the pros and cons of a decision challenges - 10 of swords = start over and learn lessons Long term potential - moon = speak of dreams, facing your fears of the unknown Advice - 2 of cups = a partnership of equals - commitment and monogamous Allues - death = transformations and changes through endings Blockers & Inhibitor - ace of cups = have courage - new relationship like teenager in love.

@blmoon You are right I should be grateful for having a medical condition which cannot be controlled, always in pain which cannot be stopped. One cannot lose what one has never had and as for being on my life path with leads to happiness and fulfilment. Well I have never had happiness or fulfilment. So yes I can trust that my life will be a waste of time. Come on death I cannot wait to leave this life.